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Loneliness

One thing that they never talk about in motherhood books is the loneliness.

I like having time to myself and quality time with my girls but the constant pressures in life make that hard.
I work part time, mainly a choice due to cost of childcare, but also because it would give me extra time with my girls growing up, time that I know I'll yearn for when they are bigger.

So what do I do with my days?
I'm ashamed to say that I go food shopping, do the laundry, do the washing up, put clothes away and generally shout at the girls for walking behind me and making a mess. I'm not house proud by any stretch of the imagination. 

I'm finding it harder to think what to do with Mima. It may be because that when I had Tilly I was fascinated by her and pushing her to get to the next stage, walking, painting, soft play, it was all new for both of us. With Mima I think I kind of expect her to do everything Tilly does now. But life is also slightly harder, navigating around school, after school activities, double the washing, double the stuff in the house.

Yesterday I was angry and frustrated and I think Mima was too. We are bored of the same old surroundings and bored of each other.
Today, in a desperate attempt not to repeat yesterday I've had to get out of the house. I went to Rhymetime at a library. It was busy, very busy but we had fun singing songs with other children and mums. However, it is funny how being in a crowded room still managed to make me feel the most isolated and lonely I've felt in a long time.
I've mentioned it before but put me in a work shirt and I could probably go up and engage with anyone. But take that safety blanket off and expose me, as me and I find it incredibly difficult.

To me, it just emphasized everything. I'm lonely and I don't particularly enjoy Thursdays and Fridays.
And the most frustrating thing is, I see others that I think feel the same as me ...they certainly have the look that I do, of boredom and loneliness. The worst bit, I can't find it within myself to change.